Did you get a load of Paul today in the 2nd Reading (1 Cor 7:32-35)? Can you believe that guy? Did he really think that a person can be distracted and torn between their spouse and God?! Does he even know what he’s talking about?
Not me. . . Nope. Uh-uh. . .
Well.
Okay, there may be times when I know I need to pray, but I don’t because of my wife. Not because she doesn’t want me to, and not because she tells me not to – but because for some reason, I have this fear that I am inconveniencing her. I feel almost selfish stepping away to spend time with God and leaving her with our children (even though she is way more capable of taking care of our children while doing five other things than I am).
Or, knowing that the time just the two of us have together is limited, that I’d be taking time away from us.
So on average, I pray more consistently during the work week than on the weekends when I’m with the family. Not that I don’t talk to God during that time, but that I don’t take separate time for just me and Him. I’m trying to be better. I mean, I know I could totally get that time if I didn’t sleep in (yes, that means that my wife wakes up with the kids, and then I still want to step away. Told you, I’m being selfish). But folks, I am not a morning person (unless I’m on retreat, then I’m totally a morning person – annoyingly so).
Beth and I have talked about my desire to pray more, and she’s been completely supportive of that. So I need to work on not allowing those thoughts that come in my head that keep me from spending more time with God. Thoughts that take my focus from God…these thoughts are…what’s the word?
Oh shoot.
They’re distracting.
Damn. Apparently Paul knew what he was talking about. Thank you, Paul.